Every little thing is gonna be alright...

I held back my 8 year old tantrum this past week and I'm proud of myself. Even though I was super excited for michael to go off to camp I was bummed. In all honesty it had nothing to do with my husband it had everything to do with me and Jesus. This is a tricky season of life for us. 3 small kids and in ministry, jobs, and of course our more desirable things to fit in like gym sessions and date nights and don't even get me started on bath times and dinner I'll spare you. I'm learning to embrace my season to be left home when sometimes it seems all the world is going on around me[without me].

I was warned though. Last year at the pastors wives retreat. A constant reminder for the younger wives was to keep your cool and stay calm when your husband is constantly on the go and you can't go with him. They advise things like make it fun. Do something different like a camp out, stay up late, something.

My biggest problem:Neither grandma is in sight! (big sigh) O WELL the show must go on!

We've hit our 2 year mark and the course of time has proved to myself ''I can do this'' But there are still those days that I long for my mother and her helping hands. I refuse to let myself go to the place of ''if only my mom was here'' Not because I don't miss her but because this is about me and Jesus. You see when I lived in all my comforts in california. I never had to rely on Jesus to get me through a 24 hour day. Nope, never even though I thought I did. I use to pray things like ''strengthen me'' ''guide me'' ''lead me'' Fill me with your love'' Well that sounded nice at the time but when he actually puts you in the circumstance and you want to throw the tantrum that your 2 year old just threw (in your heart of course, never out loud) your reminded that God is actually good. O he is faithful, He created my mother and is everything I need, and knows exactly what I need for these next 5 days. That doesn't mean it will be perfect but hopeful lol

*By the way tonight is our slumber party night, Im off to find glow sticks.           -JennyB

A Date Night.

April 16th : Date Night

These are becoming more and more rare. I find myself drowning these days in need of time away with my husband. I fight the constant battle in my mind that if only we were back home we could have allll the healthy date nights we wanted. I know it's a lie. We have purpose here, my children have purpose here. This is OUR growing season as a family. I believe it's these seasons that build strong marriages, but let me tell you..... now I know why people say it's healthy to spend at least a moment of time in the day  to just be alone and hear each other out. I know nothing about marriage only what I'm experiencing in my personal life and the little milestones we grow through. I have learned some awesome lessons about this commitment I have made to my mate. One thing I do hold dear to my heart is that when we do get time all to ourselves I feel like a kid again and it makes me happy to know that we're still gonna have fun when we're old as heck : )

Some old guy wanted to take our picture so we let him. Thanks old guy!

This place has officially made our ''happy place'' list

The seaweed carrot

other side : the calm river

We climbed a ton of rocks and wood to see it up close

Somehow I never get sick of these trees.

Thanks mom for watching the kiddos : ) 

I haven't been feeling to camera friendly if you haven't noticed give me a couple of more months when the baby weight leaves lol but i did like the picture the old man took so I shared it. I hope all in all this gives someone what they need whether its support from the missionary family to another or wife to wife or mom to mom shoot i'll be grateful if you just pray for me hahah. I'm glad I can be real with you

-JennyB