Every little thing is gonna be alright...

I held back my 8 year old tantrum this past week and I'm proud of myself. Even though I was super excited for michael to go off to camp I was bummed. In all honesty it had nothing to do with my husband it had everything to do with me and Jesus. This is a tricky season of life for us. 3 small kids and in ministry, jobs, and of course our more desirable things to fit in like gym sessions and date nights and don't even get me started on bath times and dinner I'll spare you. I'm learning to embrace my season to be left home when sometimes it seems all the world is going on around me[without me].

I was warned though. Last year at the pastors wives retreat. A constant reminder for the younger wives was to keep your cool and stay calm when your husband is constantly on the go and you can't go with him. They advise things like make it fun. Do something different like a camp out, stay up late, something.

My biggest problem:Neither grandma is in sight! (big sigh) O WELL the show must go on!

We've hit our 2 year mark and the course of time has proved to myself ''I can do this'' But there are still those days that I long for my mother and her helping hands. I refuse to let myself go to the place of ''if only my mom was here'' Not because I don't miss her but because this is about me and Jesus. You see when I lived in all my comforts in california. I never had to rely on Jesus to get me through a 24 hour day. Nope, never even though I thought I did. I use to pray things like ''strengthen me'' ''guide me'' ''lead me'' Fill me with your love'' Well that sounded nice at the time but when he actually puts you in the circumstance and you want to throw the tantrum that your 2 year old just threw (in your heart of course, never out loud) your reminded that God is actually good. O he is faithful, He created my mother and is everything I need, and knows exactly what I need for these next 5 days. That doesn't mean it will be perfect but hopeful lol

*By the way tonight is our slumber party night, Im off to find glow sticks.           -JennyB