You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand
There were so many words this weekend. Words I want to remember and take with me through daily life. Theres one that laid heavy on my heart out of all of them...submit. That word is thrown around a lot in our churchisms with a lot of misconceptions attached to it (especially in marriage) but I'm not talking about a spousal type of submission. I'm talking about the one where you "submitted" your life "wholeheartedly" to your creator when you realized and understood grace. Somehow your heels are still dug deep in the ground with petitions and a lot of "whys" and "how's" and "is that really logical" attached to them. Or maybe I'm the only person in the world who does that hahah. I'm totally talking about myself but I'm sure i'm not alone in this faith journey. For me personally I almost feel like the day I said "I do" to my husband I was in for a journey my feet could have never imagined. Hear me out now that wasn't just a cute little traveling quote i got off Pinterest right now hahah seriously this journey has been faith building.
and this is just the beginning
To say my husband has a heart for youth would be an understatement. He loves them with a passion. Scratch that he loves people( I do too but he like really loves people like Jesus loves them, I'm not there yet hahah) I can see it and I know this is just the beginning of our journey. I can feel it in my gut. With that feeling comes the question once again "will you?" In regards to obedience. It would be foolish to think my salvation was given to me to just live a comfy lifestyle (which really isn't comfy by the way, standing up for what you really believe now days is hard) I could on and on about our dreams and our plans, but thats just what they are ''our plans'' man made plans and ideas. Submitting those plans are hard [period]
So when I sing these beautifully written songs. I want to sing them with my whole heart in. Declaring that I believe what i'm singing. God sees the heart. So now let me paint the picture b/c I'm sure your reading this and saying ''where is she going'' if I haven't lost you already. Well I obviously love this Hillsong song as everyone does right now, and I even had a family member share how she always thinks of our family when she hears it. I always like it when it comes on pandora, and hit my little thumbs up button and all but it never quite spoke to me....yet.
This past weekend we had the opportunity to attend a YOUNG LIFE leadership conference. We went and got reinsured and reminded of why we're here (pretty much on this earth and Forks). I physically can't even begin to write about it cause it was just that good. Anyways as we were worshiping saturday night she played this song, and God was powerfully moving in there. There I was in the presence of my Savior, and those words began to jump off the screen! man! I was so convicted of how often I dig my heels in the ground when God asks me to go the ''the great unknown.'' I was reminded that my marriage, my life, my children are meant for the gospel. I know with all my heart that the lifestyle He has called us to isn't going to be normal. I love it and fight it all in the same day but I'm learning....and my God is patient. Not only is His plan waaaaaaay more worked out than mine but He gave us the desires of our hearts! It's such a Faith journey friend, but His peace, presence, and joy is so much more worth it. Nevertheless ''the great unknown'' is still scary. I'm writing this post to encourage you that your not alone.
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
So when I sing these beautifully written songs. I want to sing them with my whole heart in. Declaring that I believe what i'm singing. God sees the heart. So now let me paint the picture b/c I'm sure your reading this and saying ''where is she going'' if I haven't lost you already. Well I obviously love this Hillsong song as everyone does right now, and I even had a family member share how she always thinks of our family when she hears it. I always like it when it comes on pandora, and hit my little thumbs up button and all but it never quite spoke to me....yet.
This past weekend we had the opportunity to attend a YOUNG LIFE leadership conference. We went and got reinsured and reminded of why we're here (pretty much on this earth and Forks). I physically can't even begin to write about it cause it was just that good. Anyways as we were worshiping saturday night she played this song, and God was powerfully moving in there. There I was in the presence of my Savior, and those words began to jump off the screen! man! I was so convicted of how often I dig my heels in the ground when God asks me to go the ''the great unknown.'' I was reminded that my marriage, my life, my children are meant for the gospel. I know with all my heart that the lifestyle He has called us to isn't going to be normal. I love it and fight it all in the same day but I'm learning....and my God is patient. Not only is His plan waaaaaaay more worked out than mine but He gave us the desires of our hearts! It's such a Faith journey friend, but His peace, presence, and joy is so much more worth it. Nevertheless ''the great unknown'' is still scary. I'm writing this post to encourage you that your not alone.
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
*Heres to going 100% all in in 2014, I choose to take that first step wherever that might be : )
-Jenny B
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